I was waiting for the call, the call never came. Nor did your reply. Now all i can sense is your absence. Avoiding my presence.
21 March 2017
Kalau saja kita ga pernah kenal ga pernah balas pesan ga pernah tutur kata ga pernah nemu pasti aku ga lemas begini yang mana semuanya pasti salahku yang kau tunding semua jari mu ya salahnya aku menerima kamu aku memahami kamu aku menyayangi kamu malah jasad dan nadiku berseteru dengan kamu padahal kamu ga pernah menganggap aku sebesar hama pun ga pernah peduli sama kita.
17 March 2017
But the hardest part is still remain
to wake up.
06 March 2017
04 March 2017
She.... Should know by now that.. Whatever she does, only gain his nothing.
She.... Should understand by now that.. He acknowledged her nothing.
She.... Would walk away by now..
As he doesn't appreciate her like how she hold dear to his heart.
But she would like to think, to hope, to see changes in him. Because she knows what is he capable of. She trust him & know his strengths.
So she chose to believe him. Believe him still.
22 February 2017
12 December 2016
11 December 2016
29 October 2016
if only you could reach out to me as i try to reach into you.
neither of that matters to you.
why is a big question lying, floating in our heads.. or in this case, it's only been me.
why i feel like only i think all we have matters..
why would you ignores me
and why you go all quiet and surly when i ask you?
why why why
and when i try to convey, naturally you'll shut up, and ignore me.
and all you do is digging back your past! not even thinking bout ours but you, yours alone.
to think how selfish a human being can be, these provocative things that you're doing, this is it. and it's killing me.
and you'll push everything away, even me! making me a fool for wanting not let go. making me a tool for you...i don't event know what am i to you.
>this time around i'm thinking of going to india. why? coz there's so much vibrant color. i'm sure tv only show me what i want to see. tempted. take for example, i'm here stuck in Bogor but i couldn't even get out of Dramaga. "Responsibility"
>i shall not care anymore. to say that is like lying to your pretty face, like spitting up in the air. it isn't right..
>but it is true.
>i think what i have now will soon expire.
>got nothing much to hold on to these days.
>what can i do what the person i love starting to dismiss me? i haven't get used to his "grand philosophy" of love. at this point..i'm afraid, i'd lose.